Still not well

Time to let go.

  Of all that is.

  Anxiety.Neurosis.

Pure neurotic pessimistic anxiety .

  Negative worrisome .

tiresome  maddening paranoiac downright miserable.

  And since misery loves his company,the whirlwind

cesspool of this neurotic misery will do 

  it's best to bring and or drag me down.

Once again I almost fell into the trap.

  Sneaky sneak. Tricky trick and no treat.

Same nasty game ,and is quite boring at this point in my life.

  From the bowel movement this morning to the cup of joe

 that i've  been sippin' on . Not too hot . Tho' 

  here in this eatery hot as an oven it is.

Can make a person feel sluggish.Ah,The Doors on the radio.

  Have it on low, I can hear it. Seated right by the speakers.

And the windows too. Cool air comin' in. A bit of relief. 

  My toes remain cold tho' no matter what .

 I begin to write....

  A thought has occurred to me. Beauty is deadly.

The more beautiful the more horrific the death.

   My man Jack Kerouac said it best ' pretty girls make graves'

How many beautiful young women, girls have been killed,

  murdered ,slaughtered, torn to pieces..over their beauty.

One can become obsessed with such beauty.

One can go to extremes . Many have ,and many more will.

  Lust. The lust of flesh. The flesh that rots is what we become 

attached to. Beauty is a killer . A stalker hiding in the night.

   One look within those eyes and you're  lost. Lost soul.

The scent of licorice and incense flame through my nostrils..

   The sun upon me once again. Makes me stop and think .

  I Inspect your mind . Ego trouble .

sirens calling you out to sea into smashing rocks rubble.

 Beauty is the killer . Turning  saints into sinners .

   Murder for bloody satisfaction . Blood sacrifice to the gods.

 Obsesses flesh , enmeshed among madness mess.

   Blood the holy wine . holy grail. drink forth and ye shall 

become  immortal. Devilish ? Foolish . 

Forgiveness

Early morn ,my next door neighbor is playing his music really loud- 

Can here the music coming from the speakers -  

The way I hear it - U2 ''With or with out you ''  is the song playing - A sad song to fit a sad and lonely person such as myself , within a sad and lonely state of mind- Broken heart bleeding upon already stained boots..Picking at my cuticles 'till they too will bleed-

To 

   Many 

    Thoughts 

        In my head

I don't know how people forgive and forget. 
I mean it sounds simple enough, but is actually one of the hardest things we learn to do as we get older. 



I think when people hurt you they just want a quick fix to the problem. Lets slap a Band Aid on it and move you right along ! 
       This is done more for their benefit than yours..


There's a saying that goes something like this : 
The most expensive thing in the world is Trust ! 
   It can take years to earn and just a matter of seconds to lose. 

Hmmm.. . deep if you really think about it. But that's the thing, I don't think people really do think about it. 

What coming March 31 ?

 March 31 my artist line will be available in my  Etsy shop ~                            A wonderful  mixed media collection  of Blythe pull charms..

                Backdrop compliments of Charlie McComber ~https://www.etsy.com/shop/CharlieMcComberArt

 Backdrop compliments of Charlie McComber ~https://www.etsy.com/shop/CharlieMcComberArt

   Backdrop compliments of Charlie McComber ~https://www.etsy.com/shop/CharlieMcComberArt                   

                      I just wanna say that I am very excited to put this new line out . FYI~the last picture is of Lola my new girl holding my new Blythe 3-D  hair barrette that will be available in my Etsy shop 

                                                                       March 31-2013

                                     https://www.etsy.com/shop/avabunny?ref=si_shop

Fix my face

                    

   

Started on my 

dolls face up today.Here's a little peek at what I've done so far...

  Used this  great set of pearlescent chalks in 10 shimmering shades 

                      

                               

Meet Lola

                                  My new girl arrived today from Buenos Aires ^__^

She has the most amazing eyes and blue black hair . I will eventually customize her eyelids tho'.

   I have decided to name her Lola after the pretty young girl from the show `Erase una vez . 

                                   

                                         http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fF4Hk2sosLA

Feathered friends Blythe pull charms

              I started on a new line of Blythe pull charms. 
                   These one's are all soft and feathery . 
                        They will be in my shop 3/3/13 ^___^

                   

             

Softest Blythe pull charms

With spring right around the corner I decided to create a line of pull charms for Blythe dolls ^___^ Here's a peek at them 

 

            ~These little guys will be in my shop on February 23~